Sweetly Broken

I am ready to word vomit. Brace yourselves.

Part 1: The Root Issue

Likewise, my brothers, you also have died to the law through the body of Christ, so that you may belong to another, to him who has been raised from the dead, in order that we may bear fruit for God.

Romans 7:4

Eating disorders are a symptom of a deeper issue. Most often they develop as a method of coping with a larger inner problem or situation. Often, this root issue isn't even known to exist by the person and the eating disorder disguises its purpose as only having to relate with food. This is false. While from the looks of those struggling with ed's (eating disorders) it has everything to do with weight, food and calories this is not the case. Sadly though those who get caught up in ed behaviors often don't uncover the root issue for many years. This can

be due to denial that there is a problem outside of the struggle with food or that for so long you have continuously shoved it further down and more under the rug that it may take layers of uncovering before you realize there is another hurt deep down in the pit of your stomach and most importantly your precious heart.

I start with this because I believe eating disorders are so mysterious to those who have never experienced them. It is not just a matter of eating lunch and then not worrying about it or just starting to eat healthy and not working out as much. If that were the case than the statistics would be decreasing and unfortunately that is not the case. Until you can see glimpses of the root it will only continue to produce sin, not living fruit of God but rather things that please Satan.

For the past five years, six years in April, I have been trying so hard to figure out what this root issue is that has destroyed my life. Six years (probably longer than this without me realizing it) this root issue has yet to be uncovered and finally God is breaking through some tough things and allowing my eyes a little more clarity to see that I am not just an insecure girl that thinks I'm overweight. It's almost a relief when you allow yourself to accept the fact that there is a deeper problem. Although there is more to just figuring out what the problem is you are able to take a deep breath because your six years of fighting that root that was producing sin, shame and hurt is starting to come up for air and sweet friends that is when the fruit of the Lord starts producing.