Sweetly Broken

Good morning sweet friends of mine! How are we doing? Fabulous I hope. As for me I am still getting used to having spare time and figuring out how to fill it. I have realized quite quickly that I am very good at staying busy to suppress any feelings, emotions or thoughts that may arise while I am as a stand still, which most would call relaxing. That word isn't in my vocabulary (relaxing), one day it will return but we just aren't there yet.

For example, Monday night I would normally be at meeting from early evening to late night. Well, I had a minor melt down and praise the Lord Lacey answered her phone to somewhat ground me again. I then attempted to hang up a bulletin board I made last week. Didn't happen. Each time I tried to hang it the board would fall onto my desk resulting in an even bigger mess. Minor melt down number two now occurred. Of course I blamed it on the board and came very close to hammering the entire wall down. Instead I kept myself busy the rest of the night by doing these things:

1. Bleached the kitchen sink
2. Organized the cleaning supplies under the sink (after I flooded it from bleaching the sink)
3. Noticed the kitchen rug was nasty so I took it outside along with the front porch mat and cleaned them.
4. Then realized my car is a total disaster so I cleaned it entirely on the inside.
5. (It's now dark outside mind you) I then cleaned the outside of the car, with soap and everything.
6. Cleaned up a $6.00 lamp I bought at GoodWill that day. Had to super glue it and buy a new light bulb as well as Clorox it.
7. Finished crafting a picture frame.
8. Unloaded the dishwasher/loaded it
9. Started a load of wash for the towels I used to clean up the nasty water from the sink.
10. Picked up the entire house and my room.

I was a mess and all over the place. And (as I discovered in group yesterday) I do none of these things for myself and myself alone. Literally, everything I do I have the mindset that someone else will be benefitting from it or will be pleased with it. I don't believe I deserve to do anything for myself alone. So I'm suppose to be working on that this week. It's gonna be a challenge but I good one...I think.

To the point of this post. I have several craft ideas to decorate our house with for Spring. Super pumped!

First on the list is a wreath for the front door:

Obviously, the one on the right would not be for a baby arrival but I would switch up the colors.

The one on the left ^

I love the one on the right! It looks pretty easy :)

I'll keep you updated as the process continues! Have a good day! Stay dry...45% chance of rain (with lightning bolts) around noon.

Love.Love.Love.