Exhaustion

I've been in Austin for less than a week and it has been pure bliss. I returned with a little less fog clouding the beauty of the Austin skyline, my neighborhood, campus, down town traffic and life in general. God's teaching me a lot. He's taught me a lot that I'm now able to find joy and Truth in. Have I had good days? Absolutely. Has it been a walk in the park? No, that it has not been. Between seeing my counselor, going to group and starting with a dietician I'm flat out exhausted. The type of exhaustion were you want to keep moving forward because you are seeing the benefits of the hard work you've put in already. The type of exhaustion were you know you can't stop trying because that isn't what God's telling you and no matter how much it hurts to do the next right thing you manage to do it because He is faithful. As my sweet friend Catherine tells me all the time (mostly during melt downs), God has given you the perfect amount of strength you need to make it through the day. I didn't believe her at first but please trust me when I tell you it's true. Although I feel as if I've been through the ringer and should be growing grey hairs I'm determined to use God's strength He is providing me with versus the exhaustion Satan is putting on my body. It's not easy, every day is a battle but I have no doubt that I will make it to the other side. I am exhausted in every aspect of life but it's a good exhaustion because it means I'm still feeling, I'm still here and I haven't given up. I'm exhau

sted because I'm making progress. I'm taking steps forward that at times seem close to impossible but I'm doing it. And the joy in that will ALWAYS be far more consuming than any amount of exhaustion satan throws my way.

Psalms 46:1 1 God is our refuge and strength, a very present help in trouble