Series Cancelled

Mis Amigas! How are we doing this lovely Thursday afternoon? This post is just going to prove that I am indecisive, all over the place and sometimes may not think through everything before I start posting things. So again here I am proving my imperfection to all of you. Please be gentle :)

I have cancelled my "series" on how my eating disorder developed. Not because I don't want to write about it or share it with you but because in order for me to do so I feel the need to get in touch with the people who were involved in the story. There are individuals that I haven't spoken to in years and I don't believe it would be fair or respectful for me to start throwing their name around (or a fake name but them still knowing I was talking about them) in a post that could come across as blaming. That would not be right of me on so many different levels.

So if you are reading this post and feel as if you are one of those "individuals" that I haven't talked to in years then please please contact me. My goal is to slowly start getting in touch with those I have on my mental list and just share my heart with you and in return I pray that you feel comfortable sharing your heart with me. Don't hesitate and don't doubt that you are on my mental list/mind. I want to hear from you. My number hasn't changed, you can find me on facebook or shoot me an email. Or if you're in town we can even meet for coffee.

I hope from the bottom of my heart that everyone understands my decision in canceling the "series". Maybe postponed is a better word for it. Or maybe we should just say it's a story that can be shared in a book that may be printed in the future. Who knows? But to the reader who posted the comment let me validate your question and say that there was a little bit of everything that caused the ed.
- High School
- Peers
- Family
- Media/Society
- Sports/lack there of sports

And something that I have learned from the past few months of treatment is this…genetics load the gun and the environment pulls the trigger. So like I said a mixture of things. I don't blame anyone, hear me when I say that. NO ONE. God has a hand on all of this and because I believe that then I have no reason to blame anyone except for the fact that we live in a sinful world that is full of temptations.

With MUCH Love.