The Gospel According to…Caitlan!?

If I were to have a book in the Bible it would more than likely be placed after John because of course my book would be an edition to the other four books relating to the gospel. People would probably be very confused once they started reading it because well, after reading the correct stories of Jesus Christ they would then come across the Gospel of Caitlan and low and behold their worlds would be forever rocked and any sense of understanding and comfort would come crashing down on all sides of them.

Good thing I am FINALLY starting to come face to face with the fact that I have (over the years mind you) created a false gospel in my head. I would have never realized this if someone hadn't blatantly told me straight up. "Caitlan, your interpretation and ideas surrounding the gospel are wrong. They are not accurate, they are not Truth, they are lies and you are believing those lies" -Rachel aka Jesus loving therapist.

Now, of course I could sit there and tell her the entire story of Jesus Christ out of memory and habit but obviously THAT gospel doesn't pertain to me but it pertains to everyone else on this earth but Caitlan. This is when Rachel chimes in with how I am not THAT special to be the only person to have their own special made up story about Jesus, God and eternal life and everlasting love.

Dang.

So in result of this tweaked Gospel that I have created for myself and myself alone I have decided to start studying the Gospel, the real one. I am personally going through the book of Matthew with some recommended reference books as well as listening to the Stone's most recent series over the book of Mark. Good timing? Coincidence? Jesus? I am challenging myself to challenge myself with diving into Truth and praying that God will shed light on the areas that I have swapped for lies from the devil himself. I pray that God will slowly help me to allow myself to let go of the comfort of "my gospel" and grasp onto Truth and Truth alone.

Now I write this without fear of people automatically assuming that I am some "fake" rando Christian who was misinterpreting the gospel for something way out in left field. Because I truly believe that each one of us in our own ways have sorta changed the "rules" for ourselves only but not for anyone else.

"God does give grace to everybody for their sins but He won't give me grace unless I am perfect."

"Others don't have to earn God's love but if I don't serve 100 hours at the church then He won't love me."

"God has to punish me for my sin because that's what I deserve but don't worry He won't punish you because He loves you and cares for you with His whole heart and you have already been poured with grace and have been made pure."

Sound familiar? Stop for a second today and ask God to reveal to you the gospel that YOU are believing. And friends, I'm gonna go ahead and tell you what Rachel told me. You are not THAT special to have your own rules set aside just for you. We are all equal in God's eyes, therefore we all have the same guidelines, boundaries and Truth to live by.

love.love.love

Cait

PS thanks for FINALLY voting! I plan on trashing the CD cases asap :)