Hello Fall

Happy September sweet friends of mine! It is absolutely amazing how quickly time flies by. Just like that summer has come and gone and the smell of fall is starting to fill the air. Although, Texas will have a good month or so until the feel of fall arrives, Colorado has been greeted by fabulous weather! It is currently about 61 degrees outside here but feels a lot warmer since we are closer to the sun than in Texas. It is just fabulous walking out of the apartment in the mornings with the crisp wind hitting your face and with zero humidity in the air! I am in weather heaven here in Denver.

I'm going to make this short because I don't have a whole lot to say and don't feel like writing out a whole bunch. As you probably have noticed by my last post of panic I hit a rough patch that I was sure I wasn't going to get through. Well, low and behold I made it out alive! These last few days have been much more positive. As Dr. King pointed out my success of making it through the rough patch and that I CAN do it, he also told me to focus on what it was that got me through those rough days. I have started to realize how important recovery is for me so I can be a better friend, daughter and sister. My values keep me going daily and that is something that I have learned while I'm here. I am also noticing that my mind is not consumed with negative eating disorder thoughts quite as much compared to before I got here and during the "rough patches". It is so amazing to experience a partial peace of mind. I can't claim that I have total peace of mind but I see glimpses of it when I'm hanging out with the other girls. It feels good to genuinely smile and laugh. Those are the moments that keep me going :)

Found out yesterday that I will experience my third meal plan increase. It will increase twice today, once at lunch and once at dinner. Of course panic is in the pit of my stomach because I know the increase was in result of my weight getting to a plateau for the last few days. I trust Jenn though and know she know's what she's doing. I completed my first snack challenge on Friday! I went to Strarbucks with a few other girls and had to follow a snack equivalency from what I eat here at ERC. Shockingly enough I got a grande white chocolate mocha with no whip. Fully leaded with fat and sugar though! When Jenn showed me what I could and couldn't order I was close to passing out. But I did it and drank it all so go me! :) AND I'm still alive and kicking!

Okay I miss home, both Plano and Austin but things are happening here in Denver :)