And He Spoke Loud and Clear

Friends! Let me tell you something…if you don't think God is listening to your prayers you better watch yourself because He is listening and He is not afraid to pounce on those out cries. The last week or so I have been bombarded with my treatment team talking with me about what my aftercare program is going to look like. I've started working on a weekly meal plan of meals and recipes, finishing my self-assessment (aka my story), writing my wellness plan for when I go home, calling treatment centers in Dallas and just mentally getting ready to peace out of here. Can you say hello anxiety? I immediately started praying and asking God to show me what He wants me to do, where He wants me to go. Do I go home to Dallas for a few months to be in a stable environment or do I go back to Austin where all of my friends and everything are? I said, "God, show me and make it clear. I will do what you want me to do."

Welp, God answered in a crisp and clear way yesterday afternoon. During my session with Mikki yesterday I was in the middle of a freak out when she told me it was probably a good time to have this conversation. "This conversation" being insurance has decided to put a halt to supporting me financially while in Denver. Apparently, my treatment team has been fighting with insurance to get them to extend my stay for a little longer but this was a no go. They will be covering me through Tuesday and then I'll be kicked to the curb.

Of course, this is not ideal. Mikki told me that the team would have liked to keep me for another 2-3 weeks until they would discharge me but I guess God has a little something different in mind.

So until Tuesday I will be busy with getting things ready for my return to Texas. As of now the plan is to stay in Dallas through the rest of this year. I will be doing an intensive outpatient program at the Renfrew Center close to home. It will be a three days a week program for four hours each day. I also plan on doing some road tripping to Austin to start working with my team there as well as see all of my fabulous friends! I'll keep you updated as Tuesday gets closer. Thank you again for all of your love, prayers and support over these last six weeks. They mean more to me than you will ever know. God is so good and I do trust that He is taking me from Denver for a reason. Do I know why? Of course not but I'm eager to find out!

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