Monday, March 14, 2011

Grace. I'm struggling with understanding grace, applying it to my life and realizing that it is a gift. Grace is not earned by works but rather it is a beautiful gift from God. Yes, I can put that sentence together but in my heart it means nothing. I have no idea how to accept something from someone without having to prove myself or show I'm worth something. Grace has been a foreign concept to me for my entire Christian life. Unfortunately I didn't realize it was foreign until this past weekend. Now that I realize how lost I am when it comes to God's grace, I'm able to see that for years I've been lying to myself about so many things and not even realizing it.

I need God to completely change my heart. From the inside out. I need to understand this gift that I accepted eight years ago. I want to feel this perfect love God has for me without feeling like I have to prove myself to Him. I need Him to change my heart and turn my life around.


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